Blog Post #15; My Own Human Condition ~ Essay #3

I discovered that my human condition is just like anyone elses. I have hardships and so does everybody else. I overcame it and I am now trying to improve myself. I wish for everyday to be better and hope that my dreams will come true. My human condition is just to be successful and be happiest to the fullest. There are still many things I have not done yet so I am just waiting to fulfill each one of them! XD

Blog Post #12 ; Something I want..

CONFIDENCE
It's easy to have, but I do not have it in me.

Recently, I watched a new episode of "Made" on MTV. It's a show where ordinary teenagers want to become something they would never imagine themselves being.. or rather a goal.

One of the episodes was talking about confidence. I realized that I do not have enough confidence in myself to do the things I want to or at least try. I am afraid of my outlook sometimes and I am afraid of other's judgements. For instance, "look @ her... what is she doing. She's doing everything wrong." Judgements that have a negative feeling towards it. I want to have the confidence to express my own feelings and the things I want to do to.
Yes, I want confidence.
It is not something you can buy, it is something you have to believe in yourself to obtain...

Blog Plost #11 FREEBIE ; I guess I'm tired...

Lately, I have been wanting to go home more and more often. I know I am not home sick, but I am missing the coziness when I am with them. I think more about it because of the dorms :/ My roommate, who is my best friend, has her boyfriend over everyday. Imagine, everyday? :O Morning to night too... I do not mind him but it happens everyday. I had a talk with them before but I guess it did not work. I do not want to say I am selfish either, but I need some privacy. Now, whenever I am doing something... it seems like he is going to pop out somewhere. He is a really nice person, that is why I do not want to be rude either. I do get along with him. In addition, my roommate and I both buy some groceries together. I mean, her boyfriend does buy me food too from time to time but now it seems like it is groceries for three people, not two anymore. It makes me not want to buy groceries with her anymore and now we are buying stuff for our own seperately. I guess it is easier for me this way. Sometimes I buy things and I am like, "no it is fine.. you do not need to pay me back." However, she buys stuff sometimes but she counts it towards me. So my brother was like, if she's like that, then you should too just so next time you would not think like that anymore. It makes sense, so I'm like okay. Sometimes, in my room too, when I am not here... IDK if they use my things w/o asking or not. Maybe one of my pet peeves but I do not like it when someone sits on my bed or use my blanket without asking even if I am not there! Grrrr. It is weird that I am feeling all this too because she IS my best friend! Sometimes I get so annoyed with her too. It makes me think, maybe I should have not dorm with her?! Because you know what others say... that you know each other's true colors! Bleeh :/ And next year we plan to get an apartment w/ some other people and maybe I should not be in the same room as her? !#$%^&* I do not feel like having another talk because I feel it is a waste of my time. She does care, but it does not feel sincere sometimes.

Well, besides that... I am really excited for the Fall Recess :P My friends birthday is on 23, so we are going to celebrate. And then TWILIGHT is going to be out! So, I am going to go watch it w/ my roommate. See, we plan things out together and when we hang we do not get annoyed of each other! Weird, right? And then it is Thanksgiving! One of my other best friends invited me to go to her celebration, so I am. My family does not do Thanksgiving... we are not that family oriented but starting from my Junior year of High School, we have been doing more. Celebrating each others birthdays with more stuff, and Christmas. I guess it is cause we are now all older and mature. Hmm, and then there is Black Friday! :P I never WENT crazy that day before but I think I am this year. There are so many things I want =D! And possibly early Christmas shopping! HAHAH! Yes, I am a cheap arseee =( Well thanks for reading all this babble :( Byee!

Blog Post #9; Time Capsule.

If you were going to make a Time Capsule, with things that define you as a pereson what four things would you put inside?

(NO PARTICULAR ORDER (:)
1.) My Peer Counseling/Assistant Sash. Being in the Peer Counseling program made me into a more responsible, caring and understanding person. The things I learned in class and out of class taught me that real-life problems we hear about DO happen to people around us. I am able to help and empathize those around me.

2.) Photos of my family&friends. They are the one that gave me the strength to make me continue! Continue to go to school, work for my major, study hard, etc. I would want to make my family proud and friends appreciate the support they gave me. Plus, the fun times we had and remind me that those hardships we have gone through are worth it!

3.) Twilight Saga & Dramas. I'm going to let the others know what kind of entertainment addict I am! I am a huge fan of Twilight and I would hope one day I would find a guy like Edward, except the Vampire part! haha. As for dramas, how am I such a loser for Korean, HK, Japanese dramas!

4.) High School Diploma. I survived those pre-teen years and I am somewhere continuing that same education. Just @ a higher level!

Blog Post #8; Randy Pausch's Last Lecture.

What did you find most inspiring about Professor Pausch's lecture? Why?

Before going in depth with what I found MOST inspiring about Pausch, the whole lecture was truly great. He was phenomenon for keeping such a great and positive attitude while doing the speech, making the presentation entertaining by giving out relative details and examples and making jokes on and off. He did not let his own life take away his fun and he will always have fun for each day he has left. I also love how he points out his shattered goals and then slowly talk about how he achieved to where he is in the lecture. Anyway, I found a lot of things quite inspiring. One, "never give up". Even though things may throw at you not the way you want it to be, fight for it and maybe then, a chance will come. He was rejected by Brown Uni & CMU but he still hoped that he can be in the university... and he did. He was persistent. Also, when he applied for Disney, he was rejected with a letter... however, that did not make him lose hope to become the imagineer. Two, "do not do things on your own". There are always other people (friends, family, colleagues) who would love to help you and all you have to do is just open your heart. Pausch included, "tell the truth, apologize". Personally, if you tell the truth and apologize when you know it's your fault, there would be less arguments with the people you care and love in your life. Third, his lecture about the Brick Walls. Pausch said "Brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want something badly enough. They are there to keep out the other people." I totally agree with this because if you want to reach your goals, you have to give it all you got. If something stops you in the way and you easily give up, it means you are not up for it and you what you are going for is not what you REALLY want. There are many more great things that Pausch said in his speech, and it is going to be memorable for a very long time. Especially with his stufffed animals :)~
<3 NEVER GIVE UP YOUR GOALS OR YOUR DREAMS.
zOMG. I couldn't believe it was one hour plus! - Jennifer~

Blog Post #7 Own Topic!

hmm. I really don't know what I should write about.. but I guess Halloween (: Somewhat related to death. "Dia des los muertos" I think I got that right? O.O Anyway, I am so excited for Halloween! Not just because it is a holiday, it is because I am finally going to go to the Horror Night that Universal Studios has! Plus, I never been to Universal Studios in my whole life, so I am looking forward to a great experience! My dorm is also decorated with Halloween decorations in Cypresss! whoot. My friend, Jessica, who is also my roommate, and I decorated the living room, dining room and balcony like two weeks ago! We put up some ghosts on the walls and a lot of webs on the balcony, living room, dining room and the lights. My other dormmates also contributed with some other kind of cute Halloween-ish decorations~ Once in a while, our dorm will smell like pumpkin pie because of the scent that we have. Enough of decorations, it is also because I might go trick or treating ! haha (: I haven't done so for two years! whoo hoo! And I might trick or treat up in Fullerton, somewhere different for once! lol (: I'm excited to see what kind of treats I'll get. Oh yeah, my other friend plans to take me + my other friends to go see a haunted mansion! Ohh crazzie! Halloween is love! Ok byebye for now (:

Blog Post #6

If humanity fears death so much, why do we continue to invent ways to kill one another?

I agree that we are freaked out by death; however, we know it's going to come. Sooner or later it will be our last days and since we have loved ones out there, we think of the days where we are going to seperate. But the question is.. why do we invent ways to kill others. It depends on certain individuals, we are all different. Some people DO invent ways to kill one another but others do not intend to kill anyone. Sometimes, hatred comes in place. Hatred gets the best of us; it leads us to think about murder. There is this one extent point where we go, "I am going to kill her!" We say it, but we don't do the physical things. Sometimes it just takes a moment where we say such things but we do not take action. "We talk the talk, but we don't walk the walk." It's almost relevant to that quote. On the other hand, there are people who do create ways to kill others. I do not know why this happens because I am not a serial killer. But I do think people kill people for personal reasons or maybe some mental illness. But I will never know because I never met a serial killer. I would not want to know...

Blog Post #5 & What I know about my topic! (:

what does remarque have to say about war and the human condition, especially as it relates to the young soldiers called to fight?
Remarque basically is saying that the war and the human condition is the same thing. He says that the soldiers fighting the war is like fighting against themselves. We are just killing each other off. And the youngsters are just there with the same situation where Paul and Kat and the others are at. He's saying we are alone the whole time, so why don't we just end the misery and kill everyone off.
What I Already Know About My Topic: Why are we afraid of death, yet love horror films?
I am afraid but the reason why I watch ( I don't think I love horror films.) horror films is because it intrigues and excites me. I am so use to romance/comedy movies that sometimes I just need a break from them! So, I just decied to watch horror/scary movies to keep me interested. After watching so much romance comedies, some endings become so predictable; however, a lot of horror movies vary! Some movies may turn out as you think, but some may not. For example, like the Strangers - you think something would happen to the "STRANGERS" and they will get justice but they end up being the ones alive! As for SHUTTER, the couples turned out split when you thought that the main girl lead already forgive him... In addition, it's a little ridiculous how we pay to get scared! LOL. Like we buy movie tickets, knowing that the film will be scary or we watch REAL HAUNTED stories or we go to theme parks @ Halloween. I guess we know that our life will not end any time soon, so we just watch it for enjoyment~

Topic Choice

I choose; Why do we fear death yet love horror films?

Propaganda Feedback.

Propaganda is an inevitable effect that we do @ war. I believe Paul & the other troops decided to follow the propaganda to fight is because they do not know the real hidden truth. They decide to hear what all the propaganda has to offer. But now, since they have experience what it is like to JOIN and KNOW what war is like, they will begin to have different views. Right now, we are believing what is happening in Iraq because we are not there to know the truth. We do things because our government runs our lives as to which rules we have. What we abide and what we break. Propaganda around the U.S. can be different in others views. We all have different opinions as to what extent we consider how propaganda is used. Some may think it is great because we do need more troops to help out @ war. But some may not think it is because we are risking our lives to save the U.S. I consider it scary because there are horrible news on the TV, and heard some stories of the dead relatives is heart aching. However, we still have to live w/ the propaganda everyday of our lives.

Desiree's Baby Feedback

Blog Post #3: What did you think of the story's ending? Is it plausible in our society today? Why?

The story's ending was quite a twist. Armand started to ignore Desiree because he thinks she is not white; however, it turns out that Armand's mother is the one to blame. It is so ironic because I thought Desiree would be the one depressed her whole life. But then in the end, she writes a letter telling Armand that his Mother is cursed with his own race.

Yes, it is plausible in our society today. A lot of strange things happen in our society and race is one of them to be talked about. Sometimes, when you are in an adopted family or you don't know where you are coming from, you often think you are a certain race. In some cases, it turns out that, that adopted child is a totally different race and if I was a friend of that adopted child, I would accept. I think anyone, who is not racist in our society, is pleasingly acceptable of this case. Everyone should have a chance for acceptance. Sometimes race can make who you who you are, but if you want yourself to be an individual, then you deserve a chance of acceptance.

The Lottery Feedback

Blog Post #2: How does "The Lottery" suggest that unspeakable acts of violence can take place anywhere at any time and that they can be committted by the most ordinary people?

The Lottery lets us think about the true sides of each individual. Even though there may be some "ordinary" looking people around us, you do not know what other motives they make be thinking about. In my opinion, that is why we take time to "trust" someone to know that they are there for us and not for other beneficial or violent ideas. Violence can be committed anywhere because there are always people around. The Lottery tells us this by stating that even the adults are with their children, they are not fully protected. Most of the characters in "the lottery" knows how the game is played and for them to not stop the game, shows that their unspeakable acts are dangerous.

Historia de un Letrero & Mike German's "The Human Condition" Feedback.

Blog Post #1: What do the film and the photo reveal about the human condition?

Historia de un Letrero: This short film reveals about how our community and society react to the lifestyles of each other. The blind man simply wrote "Have Compassion. I am blind." It tells the passer byers nothing really meaningful and that's why they walk on. For example, there is only a big commotion when a celebrity ends up at the latest hotspot, but when I, for instance, walks into that same hotspot... I will just be another "regular" person. "Today is a beautiful day but I can not see it." This statement gives more meaning and it breeds off a different meaning. It reveals to us that the human condition is not very kind unless there is something extravagant about it. Though we are not kind, I think there are many reasons beyond that. What if the passer byers happen to be living a really hard life too? Even if they are not blind, they work hard for their own money and there can be many more reasons too.

Mike German: Mike German's photo tells us that our society is not safe and we just have to live the life that we are in. You see a figure with polished shoes and living the life. He needs to take care of himself. The man on the floor with dirty toes and jeans probably has cancer and is just lying there. Judging from the clothes, he probably is poor too. I guess people just keep walking on because they do not want to contact any disease that the person of the floor may carry. All we want is to live happy and live as long as we can.

Jennifer's Response to Blog Post #1

1.) The first five songs are...
- "White Lie" by Lee Seung Gi
- "Dreams Come True" by SES
- "Taking Chances" by Celine Dion
- "Forever" by Chris Brown
- "Crescendo" by Stella Quintet

2.) Depending on the situation, I can either lead or follow during a group setting. I lead when I have many ideas and I feel confident about the current topic. I follow when I do not have many ideas and feel that I am not capable of taking the role as the leader.

3.) My best personality trait is my willingness to help others in need. My worst trait would be that I feel that I want to be right and correct all the time. So when I said something wrong, I would try to beat around the bush and say other things.

4.) No one would ever guess that I am scared of scary stories, tales or myths. I may be listening to the story teller, but deep inside I think of the worst case scenario because I believe in such things.

5.) Five things I can not live without would be (in no particular order). Cell Phone, MP3 Player, Water, Hand Sanitizer and my memories.

6.) Usually when I want to get away, I stay at home. I usually just go to a more quiet place in the house and think to myself.

7.) One movie I watch Multiple Times is called "Titanic". I am a sucker for sad love stories, and Titanic def. came across that theme. In addition, it also let viewers in the later years realize what happened during the Titanic days and how much they have suffered and what our ancestors has done for us.

8.) I am obsessed with Korean Dramas! I do not care if I stay up all night or I cry until my eyes are swollen. Korean Dramas are my love and I am really entertained with watching them!

9.) I never really got a "best" advice... so I can't say.

10.) I enjoy English classes when it is interesting. I dread too, I can't deny because sometimes my brain is not inside at all.